Sunday, October 18, 2009

I am in the Bighouse

Well I am back in the nuthouse. Have been here 11 days now with no end in sight. I ask every day when am I getting out of here and so far the answer has been about 6 weeks from now. Not sure if I will make it through...I am dying of boredom. I am not allowed to go outside or leave the hospital at least at this stage.

So my day consists of mind-numbing group therapy sessions followed up with tons of mind numbiing questions from the staff and doctors. Are they trying to make me more crazy? I took an overdose of pills and that is how I ended up here and it looks like here I will stay for a while.

The only entertainment here is when someone gets out of control and gets dragged off the floor and tied down or injected with the sleeping potions.

Okay my 10 minute time limit on the computer is used up now. I will keep everyone posted.

9 comments:

  1. You know I am just a screen away.You stay ever in my thoughts and prayers. You can do this. Hugss, Darrel

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  2. thanks so much for your support darrel...it means a lot to me.

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  3. OMG Heather, I hadn't thought to check your blog... I've been tweeting and worrying about you... I'm sorta glad to know you are safe somewhere though.. You hang in there and do everything you can to get stable so you can get back out.. You can do this.. stay focused...I will be thinking of you... Here's a butt load of HUGS for you XXXXXXXXXXX.. Your an expert at this, so just like nike say's Just Do it !!! Just think of all the material you will have for your writings ...LOL you share it so well... LOVE YA Girlfriend !!!!!!

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear you're in the bighouse :-( I hope it doesn't end up being an entire six week stretch like they've said, but agree with comment above, that at least you are safe. It sounds terrible but hang in there - I'm entirely new to your blog but seems like there are plenty of lovely folks all here for you. And me too!

    Please take care of yourself; I hope the rest of your stay is as non-crap as possible. Be safe.

    Hugs

    SI x

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  5. thanks for your post becky and thanks for the hugs. i am getting out of the bighouse on tuesday so am looking forward to that. hope you and matt are doing okay.
    hugs
    heather

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  6. hi serialinsomniac
    thanks so much for your encouraging post. i am getting out of the nuthouse on tuesday it will have been seven weeks or so. i am really looking forward to getting out. i hope you are doing well.
    hugs
    heather

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  7. Hi Heather - hope you got out today OK as they told you and that you are keeping much better now. Take care of yourself :)

    Hugs x

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  8. thanks so much serial. i got sprung from the nuthouse okay and now am free. lol

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