Saturday, July 18, 2009

My Medication Merry Go Round

Well I started taking Lamictal today....again. I tried taking Lamictal two years ago and it made me blind, made me trip over my own feet and slur my words. Apparently these are not alarming side effects to my doctor who in his infinite wisdom has decided I should try taking Lamictal again. Yep I have officially tried so many different medications that they are now recycling them...and sadly enough I am desperate enough to go along with this wacky plan.

Sure I listened to my doctor give his speech about how I might not get bad side effects this time and how last time I took Lamictal I was also on 7 other medications, and after all my sight did come back didn't it? blah, blah, blah. Somehow I am not really convinced by his optimistic thoughts on the matter. However things have been so awful lately that I am willingly taking a pill that made me unable to see and made me appear like I was drunk or something. How scary is that?

So what is worse the illness or the cure? I can't believe with all the side effects of psychiatric medication that anyone stays on their meds. I have said it before and I will say it again being nuts is not for the faint of heart. The medication sheet that came with my prescription lists the known side effects of this medication: dizziness, headache, blurred/double vision, nasal congestion, lack of coordination, shaking, tremors, muscle weakness, drowsiness, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, painful menstrual cramps, difficulty sleeping and abdominal discomfort. It also says to watch out for a rash that can be fatal, behaviour changes including thoughts of suicide, bleeding, black/bloody stools, vomit with blood in it, bloody urine, yellowing of the eyes and skin, chest pain, slurred speech, weakness on one side of the body. Gee what I wouldn't give for a don't ask, don't tell policy right now. I think I have tremors already, no wait, I am just shaking with fear. I can't believe they let people take these medications and can't believe I go along with it...but I am sure this medication will make me feel much better. ah ha ha ha ha

So wish me luck on my journey, I think I am going to need it!


  1. I tried all the meds none of them worked.. all meds can do is
    tranquillize. Ultimately you have to take charge and quit waiting for
    a magic pill to do the work. I have a 60 year old friend who has been
    on the medication merry-go-round for 30 years. It's so sad to see him
    keep trying the same drugs over and over with the same results.. and
    he's not even very ill at all. He worked his whole life and has a
    good retirement plan but the doctors have sunk their hooks in deep.

    He's on three benzos, two mood stabilizers, one antipsychotic and some
    cholesterol drugs. He may as well start drawing social security at
    age 62 cuz on all those meds he won't have a long life. Risperdal is
    deadly for older folks..

    1. You are an IDIOT. I can't believe you actually wrote, " Ultimately you have to take charge and quit waiting for a magic pill to do the work." Do you SERIOUSLY believe that?! Let me guess, you're also a devote Scientologist? You don't believe that mental illness is even a "real" thing? SERIOUSLY? You come and read a blog by a person who lives with mental illness and even state you tried all the meds... OMG! People like YOU are ONE of the reasons there is such STIGMA over mental illness. You're an effin' MORON!!!

  2. Heather,
    Carry on my sister. One day we will all find the correct formula that works for us. Don't pay no heed to that other moron that posted. He's a bloomin' idiot!